Flashbacks
I dreamt of an weird accident, whereby a motorbike collided against a car and flew towards me and I had to evade it.
Turning back and see, folks around gotten killed and injured, and I was frantically trying to save them. Even 995 and 911 didn't help, as the line just couldn't get through.
Shocked, scared, anxious and panicky, I have no idea what to do or how to help to save them.
I wonder what this dream is all about.
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2007 vs 2008
A couple of days late, but this entry still pretty much serves many purposes...
For starters, from an accounting perspective comparison of historical performance vs forecast gives us an insight into variances and help formulate new forecasts.
Also, for the sake of a written record, since human memories are fragile.
In 2007...
- Gotten my best result evar so far after suffering poor results and a near-miss heartache (of dean's) in May. [BEST BDAE PREZZIE EVAR!]
- experienced being 'mod-less' during 1st week of sch..[stupid bidding system...]
- Thru my brudder-cum-boss
JF, discovered new and fun places with live performances...
- Broke my NY resolution of quitting drinking, and drank like a fish after exam. [Not exactly a gd thing, but that's altogether a different thing]
- Met up for the 1st time with
Uncle Jay, who never fails to make us all luff with his hilarious tales. [“又是你干的好事！！”]
- Took the plunge in many things. Some good, other bad. [Let's forget abt the bad, shall we?]
- Realised I tend to be quite a sucker AKA Robert AKA 菜头 and do stupid things sometimes...
As such, in 2008 I wish for the following...
- Dean's List!!!! (B+ avg... =P)
- To get my OBU degree by Dec 08
- If possible, to take my 2 option papers in Dec 08 and to pass them! =)
- To gain a better understanding of myself and to rediscover myself again...[cliche...]
- To clinch that internship at either Big 4 or with Credit Suisse, Standchart, Citibank, etc...
- To have a chance to celebrate my bdae properly.
- For better health, and a healthier lifestyle.
- To discover a new love for hobbies, pastime, or anything...
- Try not to be too much of a 菜头 in 2008. [Since I just did a 菜头 on the 1st fri of 08..]
Guess that's pretty much abt it.
A simple yet crazy list of wishes...
Labels: random ranting
Drink, Reflect, Drink more...
A perfect ending for a not-too-fab-start term.
15 weeks of hard work, just for that 2 weeks of anxiety waiting for results.
With results that far exceeds my pessimistic expectations and optimistic forecast.
[Nothing though compared to 6 mths of hard work & that 2 mths of waiting every semi-annum.]
Doubt there's chance for repeating such a feat though since the higher I climb, the harder it gets.
On a side-note, it took me 1/2 a bottle of Black Label to realise I've never moved on at all.
That I'm still holding on to a certain past, even though I shouldn't be.
That I thought I have let go, but I haven't.
It's painful to see myself in such a state, I conclude.
Though there isn't much I can do about it.
Into 2008, hoping it'll be much better...
Labels: random ranting
俗话说得好...
"你懂你最大的缺点是什么吗？就是你没有优点。"
Labels: quotes, random ranting
Random PUI PUI PUI
Wed night spent at Zouk Winebar was well-spent with Mr. Koh, XF, jen,
dodo dody & YL.
Lots of crapping, endless scandalous fotos. Topped with 1-for-1 'cheap' booze for all.
1 of the key nonsense that XF crapped was abt the old HAPPY. (u know which 1. the 1 at Tg Pagar..)
Anyway she was exclaiming that nice guys are either:
1) Attached/Married
2) Monks
3) Gay
4) Ugly & Fudgy
5) Dumb
6) Some/All of the above
If I ever fall into this category, I'll pick (3) , (4) & (5). [Cos I got 自知之明, so i chose (4) & (5).]
This way, at least no one dares to lay hands on my insurance claim.
[So I can freaking donate them all to charity!]
Anyway it was like a freaking SMU Fuckfest last night. Met Edward, Russell, Kinseng & other folks there.
I think most of the SSU folks were there, along with the dance folks and perhaps the more happening people from Biz. [Acc ppl mugging in lib. lalala...]
It was packed like mad at winebar already, I swear.
Mambo side was worse.
It's kind of disappointing yet of a sort of relief that I didn't went Mambo after that with the gals.
[Although I wanted to.]
No, I didn't have any meetings or what's not the next morning [proj mate sick, so meeting cancelled.]
And yes, the queue's pretty long that I decided no point going.
since i might not get free priority entry as citibank cardholder+ I just don't believe in spending more for the night and not getting high and drunk.
No I'm not drunk. I'm pretty much thirsty still, though tired. =*(
Besides, 10 jugs only for 6 of us, Dody's pretty gone and I'm on auto-pilot cos I'm FREAKING sleepy.
So bad I had to stop over for bak kut teh cos I'm sleepy and tired. Bah.
Guess I need to rest more in advance if I plan to drink next time.
Anyway another all-time nonsense from Biz Analysis class today as illustration for IT strategies...
"A good example will be comparing a maid & a wife.
When u're single, it's more affordable to outsource & get a maid cos u dun haf that much activity to reap EOS. Thus outsourcing generates savings.
However when activity increases till a point where the maid is more costly, u get married. Then u can insource and be an outsourcer for others!"
With classes like these, it's hard to fall asleep. Though I still do.
There's no rest for the wicked, remember?
On a sidenote, facebook does lots of nonsense.
U suddenly realise that many of those cute frens of urs were all attached. Bah.
As though those gals are like slots for JAP101. Taken up immediately with high bids @ the 1st instance possible.
Anyway a brand new day tomorrow. Let's see how things go. =P
Labels: drinking, random ranting
Disruptions
When the world seems to be against u...
When everyone takes what you say at face value & not with a pinch of salt...(perhaps they like it salty, thus many pinches of it..)
Perhaps it's high time for me to...
Wave my hooves and say, "BAH!!!"
Like what someone told me during a dinner...
"If you dun like it, if u're annoyed, just don't comment lor."
And indeed he's right. Perhaps I should really do so.
There's afterall a limit as to how right people can get.
Especially when they're whining about something when others (especially their other 1/2) are alright with it.
A typical case of complaining abt "how poor you are when ur S/O's willing to 同甘共苦 with you", or how fat you are when everyone says you're just right.It's pretty annoying at times.AND MIND U. I'm fat [internally] and poor too. BAH.[My arteries are 1/2 clogged...bah]Labels: random ranting
Opportunities, Happyness
"Perhaps happiness never existed. That's why people blindly pursuit happyness..."
I guess sometimes opportunities present themselves only once. The moment you passed by and missed it, you can never get it back.
"幸福常未必摆在眼前，所以你必须自己努力去争取..."
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Ignorance.
I guess I never knew, but apparently SG's a very small place.
Oh well. Some things are apparently never meant to be revisited. Evar.
Labels: random ranting
Unwell
Bah. I'm down with the insignificant yet deadly
bird cow flu now.
Which makes me wonder, why did I even stay till so late for my TA consultation session?
1-5 to be precise, when my session is only from 3-5. Bah.
(The fact that there's a quiz tml doesn't help in reducing my inflow of 'clients'.)
Bah, I'm only getting paid $500/sem for being a TA.
So be nice, let me maximise my 'idle time variance' kk?
(And oh, TAs are not omnipotent, all-knowing, online 24/7 and of cos, invulnerable/invincible. So don't try to baffle us with chim chim qns...)
On the upside, at least it's kinda fun to confuse the already confused souls in sch.
Can't help giggling when I see their blur look.. (though tat means i gotta re-explain things all over again)
Bah. Anyone care to be nice and get me a hot drink now?
(Make that a whiskey with hot water to clear up my nose with vapour action.)
Labels: blah blah..., health, random ranting, school
Work...
"Oei, 东西做好一点. Be professional, not personal." - 刘玲玲 in 881
I guess that pretty much sums up my 1/2-hearted blog entry in a long time abt 881.
To be honest, it's really hard for me to stay focused and objective about my goals and keep to my plans.
Not when I'm still enshadowed by all these past events which I'm still trying to pull away from.
To be fair, everyone does have their fair share of heartwrecking affairs and well...skeletons in their closet.
It's just a matter of how long one takes before we throw them all into the sea...
(for someone else to rediscover them another day...)
With the endless FRSs & SSAs to read, I really don't have the time to brood over anything.
Yet, that subtle trigger always brings me back to memory-recollections, which hurts alot...
Which boils down to the very fact... Why did I even start with something that doesn't seem to last for long?
Just as the same way I question my sanity for doing the BAcc or ACCA programme.
For a moment, I experienced serendipity in the welliness centre when I had a nice nap there...(Till some asshat woke me up. BAH!)
And my friend asked jokingly if I was there for counselling..
Which was kinda weird, since I wanted to take the counselling course, but yet I needed counselling myself...
(In Russell Peters' words, -indian accent- "That will be counterproductive...")
On a nice note, the cut's healing up pretty well, after the bigger 1 apparently got reopened abit on Sat cos I overexerted myself during kayaking.
Must be the sea water, it has to be.
But that makes me look...shallow. Bah. (Duh, it is shallow)
Maybe I shld start with a new deeper 1 to top it up... (Play tic tac toe perhaps?)
But meanwhile, I need Yoko Yoko... [care to sponsor?]
Not just for the endless backaches & shoulder aches, but also for that swollen elbow that I picked up on Cacherel's car when I closed the door and kena it... =*(
Labels: blah blah..., random ranting, school
Truth & Mistruth...
So here's the truth...
I did
mutilate cut myself.
By design or accident or whatsoever, I did.
And it kinda of felt good.
And of cos, I bled.
Now the mistruth...
It wasn't exactly deep.
Or non-fatal, I would say.
Perhaps I should try somewhere less fleshy the next time round instead.
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Bidding Woes...
Time to blow matters up.
After emailing the prof, it's high time I email the admin folks in charge of bidding
& blast them under the cover of suggestions...
Next up? Senior manager at Business Sch regarding class size matters and admitting of an additional maggot like me for some mods....
Sometimes, it's always nice to blow things out of proportion and disregard the chain of command.
Labels: blah blah..., random ranting, school
Self-mutilation, weird stuff...
I really hate to broadcast this on my blog, considering the image (if any) I've been protraying...
Besides, it's pretty warped and wrong as well...
But then...
Self-mutilation feels good.
Pls don't ask me why...
For right now, I'm enjoying every moment of it while not being in the right state of mind...On a side note...
Pls park ur cars properly.
Labels: inspirational shit, random ranting, relationship
Dumb Mistakes, Verge of ..., Birthday
Had a really horrible week where I was on the verge of breakdown any moment.
To top it up, bidding for modules had sent my heartbeat up to an all-high of around 150 all the time.
Just when this time during the 2nd window I'm pretty certain that I already sealed my bid with a super high bid figure...
Imagine my horror when I realised I bidded for the wrong class. =(
Instead of G8, I bidded for G5. And the sad fact that there's only 1 slot left goes to show that the prof's good and I'm unlikely to get it unless I bidded very high.
Now the horror when I bidded wrongly. Unless someone's willing to drop during BOSS 2A, otherwise I'll be doomed literally. Bah.
Unless I manage to get the professor to accept 1 more in her class. Bah.
(Tough move... Harder than trying to get Uncle Lee to say yes...)
On Fri nite, Joelle Ah Yee's bdae celebration...
Nothing too xiong...Just chilling out... Though I keep ask her drink...
On side news, poor Amber got bashed left-right-centre for her 21st bdae bash...
And me being the nice sweetie, only jio her to drink 1 cup ONLY since i came so late.
1/2 a cup full, there's all... I think that was the trigger... =P
Her sis wasn't nice enough and keep taking fotos of her 'merlion-ing' in the toilet.
With my cam. hurhurhur. But I ish lazy to post it up... =P
Anyway loved her cake...damn nice!!
Happy 21st bdae gal! My 'car' coming for u next week during the bash.. =)
Labels: bdae, blah blah..., picture, random ranting
Depression
Still feeling horrible as usual.
Hyperventilation has kicked in. Bah.
To those who knows, I'm ok...
Still living and kicking...For the moment that is.
Lots of silly things I did...
And to think I'm comtemplating taking a sem off to rest.
Bah.
Guess silly's calling silly silly. =(
Labels: random ranting, school
R U OK?
Don't even think of asking that question.
U probably know the answer to it.
At the moment, I just feel like hiding away from the world.
I'm sorry to all if I didn't show up for anything.
For right now, I just don't feel like facing anyone.
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Madness...
Sheer madness on the 1st day of school.
Left home late, reached on time, and gave everyone the black face. Bah.
Not to mention, didn't speak AT ALL in finance class.
& Lizhen thought the prof's a yr 3/4 student lor... Bah.
Anyway, I pretty much went bonkers today.
Dropped 2 out of 4 confirmed mods, only to bid for 2 more, which includes re-bidding for MS but on thurs instead of fri.
Reason being? to compact my classes to 4 day week instead.
So much for high-risk maneuvers
In other news, I'm pretty much on my way to getting my Oxford-Brookes degree.
Just a matter of whether it's 2nd Upper (confirmed!) or 1st class...
Gotten a sucky 54 for fin. reporting and a better but equally sucky 68 for fin. management.
Bah.
That still works out to an average of 61 still, which means I need 61/100 at least for Audit to get my 1st Class... Bah.
Meanwhile, I need lots of $$$ for my textbooks...
And lots of e$$!!! pls dun bid so high. Bah.
On side news... Maybe I'm just lost.
Too much changes... Too much blows...
Perhaps I shld take a sem or 2 off to rest and reflect...
Labels: blah blah..., random ranting, school
Chalet, PT + Gavin's birthday...
I'm really sorry that I haven't been blogging alot.
Much as I wished to blog, but something's pulling me back from doing so.
Perhaps I'm still enshadowed by the past afterall..So I guess I'll let the fotos do the speaking then?
28th July 2007...After a couple of drinks... (Ok, perhaps many couples of drinks...)
Weird nonsense happens...
1st the mass bonging left-right-centre, in-out, up-down, up-up-down-down-A-A-B-B Start...
Followed by Unca A pouncing on the target for 2nd round...
And having a ravaged target finding someone to seek help...
And the attacker proud and gay...
And the ending shot before Unca A falls back into deep sleep...
(So Titanic!!!)
THE END. Bah. =P
10th Aug 2007. Got mobilised for PT + Gavin's bdae @ Movida.
Table's laden with lots of poison for choice already when Nad & I arrived.
Shortly after, poor Ah Yee J gotta take the rap for her bf cos her bf smoked out sometime along the way.
Then, 莫名其妙 got dancers and live band come out.
Machiam like Bollywood lidat, something happened den everyone's out to dance.
A frontal shot...
For some reason though, TK wasn't pleased with it.
Thus the totem of freedom.
Shortly after, TK found alternate source of leisure.
Although it looks as though someone pulled an rear-entry off on him while he attempts it on M.
After that, TK tried to pull off another stint on the bdae boy...
Only to be told, "Sorry we don't serve banana split here..."
Anyway, my biggest surprise for the night came in the form of finger food.
OMG! How come Movida sells such nice fried finger food?!?!
It's akin to KTV Pubs!!!
Anyway, drinking with the outlaws' fun yet weird.
Apparently, the bottles seem to defy the laws of matter conservation.
Cos they just don't seem to empty.
either that, or they just keep coming.
And the best shot of the day??
The sexy back from
JF's bdae back then strikes back!
(Though Alex tries to get a piece of it this time...)
Doesn't this look sooooo familiar?
Hmmm perhaps not.
Oh well.
That's all.
As for the rest of the stories, go fill in the blank.
Bah. Time for zzz...
Sweet dreams are only for the naive sheeps.
Reality's for the forsaken souls...
Labels: blah blah..., drinking, events, picture, random ranting
Hopeless Society, Dumb Teens, Needless Cursing, and an Asshat 'top blogger'
There's so much things I wanted to blog about.
Like the Uni-Y Blue Moo session that we had at YMCA's rooftop on Fri nite.
Or that wild bdae celebration of PT & MB on Fri nite as well.
Or that movie review of Jay Chou's Secrets, which I watched with Yvonne on Sat night.
(Now stop being a pussy & be frightened by ghost lah.)
But instead, I decide to talk about something more serious.
Something that's more of a concern. Especially in our society.
Remember
Felicia Teo, the student who was reported lost since 30th June?
The gal whose foto is on flyers and posters all over bus stops and lamp post in town?
I only got to hear about her case recently after the media & blogosphere covered it briefly...
Apparently,
some asshat had to well, BE THE ASSHAT and curse her.
Nadia was the 1st to alert me about it...
Not to mention, the self-proclaimed 'top blogger' started a
round of flaming on a 13-yr old gal who plagiarised his nonsense not too long ago.
Ok, maybe quite long ago.
Generally, I'm not so big on all this flaming issues. What I felt was, it's meant for AA (Attract Attention) folks like XX and co.
But for him to curse the missing gal to drown to death?
That's akin to the case of the secondary school gal who said on her blog that her classmate who drowned in the drain/canal deserved it.
[Anyway that poor idiot got whacked by some other folks from school as well.]
No one deserves to be cursed so badly. Ok, perhaps Bush & Osama may qualify for it.
But I mean, why resort to such verbal abuse on someone (a gal especially) when she's in mishap?
There's something called Karma.
U could possibly end up in the same situation where u need help while hanging for ur life on the edge of a cliff, and some asshat could similarly throw a barrel at you, Donkey Kong style.
Or get run over by a car and the next farker just continue w/o stopping by and help.
[P.S. I ain't cursing U voxy. I'm just generating hypotheoretical scenarios for u.]
In a modern society like Singapore where our papa & grandpa Lee happily shoot the word "civilised" like no one's business, this is certainly not anything near civilisation.
The very last thing we need is for our society (or in fact any) to be cold and uncaring, oblivious & unconcerned with problems faced by others within the society.
*Updates* - our in-house camwhore has removed his link. Bah. Oh well.
thank god for the screenshows Nadnut has.
Screenshots as follows:
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Weird nonsenses...[edited]
I wonder if liquor helps 1 to dream or whatsoever.
Cos for a moment, it certainly felt like reality, Paprika-style.
Or perhaps even the slightest manifestation of my imagination...
All the break-ups & patch-backs, all the fun, joy & love, misunderstandings, disappointments and heartaches...
It definitely didn't feel like a dream.
One thing for certain, it has significantly & almost materially distorted my opinion and views on my action plans.
With reasonable assurance, no less.
Or maybe it was just the crazy jam at 3am at CTE tunnel under Chinatown.
[They closed 2 of 3 lanes for repair. bah.]
Too much liquor, lots of recycled stale air in the car, + a move-stop motion cos of the jam.
It all ain't conducive for anything.
Not even for my damn imaginations to picture any nonsense.
[
P.S. someone pls dun tell Nad that I drank while she's away at the Ladies. Oops.]
On a side note, here's the
weirdest nonsense I ever read so far about cigarette smuggling in SG.
Ever since someone tries to do so by taping them around their waist of hiding them in the shoe or whatsoever.
ICA seizes $285,000 worth of contraband cigarettes in coffins
SINGAPORE : In a first for customs officials in Singapore, $285,317
worth of contraband cigarettes were found in coffins.
ICA officers
seized 37,199 packets of duty-unpaid cigarettes in a raid on August 9.
They also arrested three male Singaporeans aged 32, 37 and 55 years.
The trio were busily retrieving cigarettes from the coffins and
repacking them into carton boxes when the officers arrived.
Following a
tip-off, the raid was conducted at a warehouse in Toh Guan Road East, where
officers found a total of 33 coffins. - CNA /ls
Guess the cigarettes are going up in flame with the coffins. (And perhaps the corpses?)
Or...
It'll probably be repackaged and sold to U smokers with extra duty & extra GST.
So much for the need to generate tax revenue from smugglers' effort. Bah.
P.S. that's all for the moment. Nuffnang updates after back from class. bah.
P.P.S. I still wonder why dreams only kick in now. bah bah.
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