Time erosion
Perhaps the passage of time has dulled my senses...
To the extent I am no longer who I am...
The lack of realisation of one's wants and needs nevertheless further confuse my desire for self-knowledge & self-actualisation.
Not to mention, additional knowledge may not necessarily be a good thing, for it brings about extra suffering.
Ignorance is bliss, I concur. [As usual.]
I wish I never had to know or face such painful facts again. But I can't.
Labels: inspirational shit
Reflect, Repell, Refract...
It's hard to say there's nothing wrong when you're still up at such inhumane hours drinking away alone while wondering what's exactly wrong.
In fact, to even be up till so late during a break is considered taboo & pure madness.
Times like these, it's best yet hardest to reflect on yourself.
As the saying goes, "it's hard to be happy unless you know what you want."
Indeed, it's really hard to be even satisfied, even harder still to be happy.
4 more days till a change. Abeit a physical 1.
I could use a mental 1 though. And an emotional change.
With uncertainties, there's a need for drastic changes...
Especially when there's an unsaid reliance on me by 4 other project mates. (NOT THAT I WANT TO be relied on.)
"There's no rest for the wicked", indeed.
Perhaps it's time to revisit 1 of those forsaken persona of mine from the long-gone past...
On a side note, any kind soul care to enlighten me on what's the difference between the normal Macallan 12 yrs and Macallan Elegancia?
Cos can't really seem to tell the difference...
Labels: alcohol, inspirational shit
Happyness is...
(No, it's sitting in the toilet and reading while happily shitting away...That's too Mugger-ish...)
Happyness is...
1) Knowing u can nod away while reading w/o a worry for the world...(or the scent)
2) Knowing there are always friends who remember u and know what's going on in your life, even though u dun see them ard...
3) when long-time-no-see frens are still nice and care for u...
4) knowing frens will stop u even if u hate it cos it's for ur sake...(bah, dun stop me frm drinking k? =P)
5) And lastly...it's when you know no matter where u go & what u do, there'll always be someone who will support u.
Labels: blah blah..., inspirational shit
Self-mutilation, weird stuff...
I really hate to broadcast this on my blog, considering the image (if any) I've been protraying...
Besides, it's pretty warped and wrong as well...
But then...
Self-mutilation feels good.
Pls don't ask me why...
For right now, I'm enjoying every moment of it while not being in the right state of mind...On a side note...
Pls park ur cars properly.
Labels: inspirational shit, random ranting, relationship
Hopeless Society, Dumb Teens, Needless Cursing, and an Asshat 'top blogger'
There's so much things I wanted to blog about.
Like the Uni-Y Blue Moo session that we had at YMCA's rooftop on Fri nite.
Or that wild bdae celebration of PT & MB on Fri nite as well.
Or that movie review of Jay Chou's Secrets, which I watched with Yvonne on Sat night.
(Now stop being a pussy & be frightened by ghost lah.)
But instead, I decide to talk about something more serious.
Something that's more of a concern. Especially in our society.
Remember
Felicia Teo, the student who was reported lost since 30th June?
The gal whose foto is on flyers and posters all over bus stops and lamp post in town?
I only got to hear about her case recently after the media & blogosphere covered it briefly...
Apparently,
some asshat had to well, BE THE ASSHAT and curse her.
Nadia was the 1st to alert me about it...
Not to mention, the self-proclaimed 'top blogger' started a
round of flaming on a 13-yr old gal who plagiarised his nonsense not too long ago.
Ok, maybe quite long ago.
Generally, I'm not so big on all this flaming issues. What I felt was, it's meant for AA (Attract Attention) folks like XX and co.
But for him to curse the missing gal to drown to death?
That's akin to the case of the secondary school gal who said on her blog that her classmate who drowned in the drain/canal deserved it.
[Anyway that poor idiot got whacked by some other folks from school as well.]
No one deserves to be cursed so badly. Ok, perhaps Bush & Osama may qualify for it.
But I mean, why resort to such verbal abuse on someone (a gal especially) when she's in mishap?
There's something called Karma.
U could possibly end up in the same situation where u need help while hanging for ur life on the edge of a cliff, and some asshat could similarly throw a barrel at you, Donkey Kong style.
Or get run over by a car and the next farker just continue w/o stopping by and help.
[P.S. I ain't cursing U voxy. I'm just generating hypotheoretical scenarios for u.]
In a modern society like Singapore where our papa & grandpa Lee happily shoot the word "civilised" like no one's business, this is certainly not anything near civilisation.
The very last thing we need is for our society (or in fact any) to be cold and uncaring, oblivious & unconcerned with problems faced by others within the society.
*Updates* - our in-house camwhore has removed his link. Bah. Oh well.
thank god for the screenshows Nadnut has.
Screenshots as follows:
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Mixed bouts of High & Low
Random bouts of moody-ness.
Sometimes good, sometimes bad.
Mostly bad, I would say.
I guess Veron was probably 1 of the 1st few to notice it when I went to fetch her for chalet.
The unusual level of sarcasm, that is.
Then again, unusual level is only kept for certain category of folks & certain events. bah.
I guess I shall not touch on the day's events, both happy in the east & sad in the west.
Maybe I shld move to the east perhaps?
Bah, perhaps not.
To quote
Qiqi,
生气是表面化的发泄；伤心是隐瞒着的事实。
吵架是途径；期待些什么才是原由
Perhaps that could explain precisely what I was feeling, even till right now.
Somethings I'll probably never ever understand why. Cos I wasn't given a chance to.
Just when I thought things are over and all well, apparently the much-desired numbing effect which only lasted temporarily faded and things got worse.
Bah. I guess I was truly forlorn afterall.
Not the 1st for sure, but probably countable with just 1 hand or afew fingers.
Afterall, it ain't easy for skeptics like me to put forth my true feelings.
But right now, all I do want...
Ish someone to cuddle up against, and offer me a sanctuary...
Cos I'm feeling lost and down, and the room's as if Hell had froze over and over again...
The fact that random memories keep coming back,
random updates and snippets of events here and there,
and that sudden bout of mood swing all didn't help.
And the last thing I want was to freeze with all these random nonsense in my mind, in the room.
(The aircon CERTAINLY wasn't helping by blowing at full blast)
Right now, all I can do is stare out towards the light outside the window, while remain lost and trapped within darkness.
Guess that's the irony of life.
Afterall, I stepped into this room of darkness myself.
Probably the dumbest move evar, but then again, since when love isn't ever dumb and stupid and blind?
Ignorance is bliss, I concur.
I still love to love, and hate to hate. -zen effect-
P.S. no mood to blog abt chalet. Sorry.
& the fact that no cuties among the dragon babies sux SIA!!!oops.
Labels: blah blah..., inspirational shit, random ranting, relationship
Hello Kitty & Dear Daniel
Ever wondered why Dear Daniel always looked so unhappy?
The reason is because....
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Hello Kitty don't have mouth.
[Go figure out the equation.]
Labels: blah blah..., inspirational shit, random ranting
China's Surname Woes & its unforeseen problems
Taken from
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_asiapacific/view/281699/1/.htmlBEIJING: With more than a billion people now sharing just 100
surnames, Chinese authorities are considering a landmark move to try and end the
confusion, state media reported on Tuesday. [...]
[...]Under a new draft regulation released by the ministry of
public security, parents will be able to combine their surnames for their
children, a move that could open up 1.28 million new possibilities, the China
Daily newspaper said.
For instance, a father named Zhou and mother named Zhu could
choose to call their child either Zhou, Zhu, Zhouzhu or Zhuzhou, the report
added. [...]
Do you know what that means? A whole lot of mismatched new surnames!!
There is sure bound to be funny combinations popping up.
According to what I gathered from the
barflies in the bar, here are some funny combinations contributed by them:
Huang + Li = HuangLi (Pineapple in chinese)
Tan + Gao = TanGao (cake in chinese)
Toh + Cai + Tao = Toh Cai Tao ('cut carrot head' in dialect) [give the English name Robert for better effect: TohCaiTao Robert]
Mo + Li = MoLi [given name = Ka Chen]
Lee + Lee = LeeLee [given name = Lily Lili]
Chia + Chia = ChiaChia [sounds like Cha Cha]
See + See = SeeSee [now how sissy can the guy get?]
See + Gao = SeeGao [dead dog in dialect]
See + Wang = SeeWang [hope in chinese]
Wu + Long = WuLong [blur in chinese]
Wu + Gui = WuGui [turtle in chinese]
Long + Gan = Longgan ['nuff said]
Lau + Sai = LauSai [so Andy Lau shldn't date a taiwanese tribal gal]
Chee + Bai = Chee..[you know the rest]
So Dr. Chee better not go China and get married to a woman surnamed Bai.
Or he'll be a even bigger laughing stock.
But it could be very messy in the future.
Not to mention, think of the poor folks 2 or more generations downwards when their parents with 2 or more surnames marry each other.
Imagine a LeeLee marries another LeeLee and call their daughter Lily, Lizhen.
Think about what could happen when she goes to the doctor and tells the nurse her name.
Lizhen: "I'm Lily LeeLeeLeeLee Lizhen."
Nurse: "WTF?! Oei dun come here kajiao else I call police."
Lizhen: -_-
Get my point? Besides, think of that poor kid of Mr Chow & Ms SeeSee.
That poor son of theirs will be ChowSeeSee Robert/Alex/god-knows-wtf-guy's-name...
So pls... Have a cap on the number of combined surnames you can freaking have in a name.
You don't want to have your kid's surname longer than their own name.
That sucks, especially in exam.
*update* Thanks to Vincent for this latest contribution of Andy Lau + Sai Mei Mei...
Labels: blah blah..., global and world nonsense, inspirational shit, random ranting, society's crap-shit
Cow is an IDIOT...
And I'm pretty sure some of U knows why.
Especially the ah yees.
Cow is dumb, stupid, idiotic, fat, slow & UGLY.
DAMN, sounds like I ish condemned. Oh well...
Need lots of rest for tomorrow. =(
Meanwhile some donuts posters for U asshats out there...
We have the 1st poster that's meant to tease u asshats...
The 2nd 1 to describe some idiots
(like me) who actually queued for 4hrs just to get some rings...
(how come everytime take longer and longer?)
The 3rd 1 is just to poke fun as idiots who queue up blindly for Hello Kitty & Donuts alike. (not me!)
And this last 1? Just a more crude version of the 3rd..
Now, I wonder if there'll be a fighting incident over queue-cutting for donuts, like what happened for the hello kitty years ago? =P
Labels: blah blah..., food for thought, inspirational shit, picture, random ranting, society's crap-shit, whining
Reflect Reflecting Reflected
I just realise I'm at the 900th post milestone, and reaching the 1000th post milestone soon.
This also marks me blogging (I wonder which dumbfark came up with the term blogging), or rather writing on a weblog since 2002. (Dun ask me which mth)
A good 5+ years of 'blogging' I must say.
If you close 1 eye and ignore the bad part of it, that is.
This is afterall, 1 of the longest blog I ever held on to after Livejournal.
Which brings me to the point of pondering over the true meaning of blogging.
Is it to mindlessly blog about your daily happenings so that your friends can all know that you stoned to boredom at home everyday?
(And oh please, I don't wanna know you're too poor/lazy to buy a diary or you use Biore instead of Loreal for facial)
Or is it to comment on world affairs without worries of backlash? (even if there are, they won't know your face. =P)
Or, is it just mindless effort on your part to create publicity like some of the more 'pinky' bloggers out there?
(Just becos they get a pink PSP from blogging, doesn't mean you gotta follow them too!)
Then again, sometimes, you just have to blog. But for no apparent reason.
Which occurred to me frequently in the past.
However, 1 of my biggest dislike is having to blog to pass time, when I really don't have something to blog about.
Blogging for the sake of blogging is just so wrong.
It is akin to having sex for the sake of having sex. (Ok my bad if you folks have needs.)
Or cooking for the sake of cooking. (You cook cos u're hungry, u want to eat, or cos it's fun!)
Or even reading for the sake of reading.
Whatever the activity, I just don't believe in doing it for the sake of going through the motion.
Which is why even though the stats of this blog is pathetic and way below the required min 20 unique hits by
nuffnang.com.sg, I still don't believe in increasing my site hits by bitching about how bimbotic Steven Lim or so-&-so is, or complaining about how dumb American/Singapore Idol is, or even posting up sure-laughter bullshit like this:
And this.
Nevertheless, as one grows older, it is inevitable that we would seek purpose in everything we do.
Meanwhile, I guess most of us are just doing things for the sake of doing it.
Some say it's stupid. I prefer to think of it as "Ignorance is bliss". =)
P.S. Nadia!!! When are you gonna organise boardgames outing to pitstop?!
Labels: blah blah..., inspirational shit, picture, random ranting
Good and Bad...
Why is it that having too much of good things is bad for health,
whereas having too much of bad things isn't good for health?
Whoever's the omnipotent being up there must have been quite the asshat.
Especially when they covered the Indians with hair and put them in India, where it's hot like hell.Take it as I din say the above, lest I get bashed by those religious zealous fanatics.
Labels: inspirational shit, random ranting
