Self-mutilation, weird stuff...
I really hate to broadcast this on my blog, considering the image (if any) I've been protraying...
Besides, it's pretty warped and wrong as well...
But then...
Self-mutilation feels good.
Pls don't ask me why...
For right now, I'm enjoying every moment of it while not being in the right state of mind...On a side note...
Pls park ur cars properly.
Labels: inspirational shit, random ranting, relationship
Information Overload
Bah. That's what I'm experiencing now. (I wonder if someone else's reading this.)
So much emails to clear, so much liaisoning to do.
Bah, Gotta check with Fuji Ice Palace and Snow City regarding ice skate, snowboard & ski-ing.
And to add on to the load, lots of RSS feeds to read.
And the biggest problem with RSS feeds? Information overload.
As a result of having such a wide information network, I virtually get bits & pieces of various happenings, and let's just say that's how I got to know about events, celebrations and stuff lidat.
(Which kinda bring about further heartaches and frustrations cos...nvm)
Oh well, let's not go into the exact details as to where I get my feeds and info from.
Let's just say...Technorati & Google work miracles.
[Aku found blogs of almost the entire Org. Comm for my camp]
Somehow,
someone was talking about celebrating the various milestones in life,
16, 18 and 21.
Needless to say, I had quite a bad time at those pt in time less my 18th, which my then-gf kinda celebrated with me.
[Ignorance is bliss. Innocence is priceless. Good old fun times slacking ard]
As such, I shall never date a 20-going-21 gal evar. [Not as if I can/got the looks/afford the time & $$.]
Not just cos I had a sucky 21st bdae mugging for AS... [__ to exam schedule]
Not just cos I was deemed insignificant to be present at 21st bdae celebration...[No prize for guessing...]
Not just cos I had exams + IPPT in Dec after my sch's exams & my freaking bdae as well...
But...
I kinda realise folks around that age (esp gals) experience lots of changes, that makes it hard to comprehend them.
And to make things worse... I already don't get them, to start off with.
Bah.
It's like having a tsunami right after an earthquake.
Things just can't get any better.
[Another analogy? Wall Street Slump followed by ST Index fall. Get the pict?]
I hate 21. So much for being 21.
(Aku no watch R21 yet! Courtesy of Texas Chainsaw closing early)
So...Anyone care to pledge his/her presence in advance towards my belated 21st & oncoming 22nd??
Last yr's Wala clashes with ZoukOut & was a serious flop. -> only Ah Yee Missy turned up.
[afterall, if nv celebrate 21st, can consider I'm still 20th... =P]
Bah. Uncle Fong's chalet pixs + Uni-Y FOC's fotos to come soon.
And by soon, pls go infer. => [IE when I feel like it.]
Labels: blah blah..., random ranting, relationship, society's crap-shit
Mixed bouts of High & Low
Random bouts of moody-ness.
Sometimes good, sometimes bad.
Mostly bad, I would say.
I guess Veron was probably 1 of the 1st few to notice it when I went to fetch her for chalet.
The unusual level of sarcasm, that is.
Then again, unusual level is only kept for certain category of folks & certain events. bah.
I guess I shall not touch on the day's events, both happy in the east & sad in the west.
Maybe I shld move to the east perhaps?
Bah, perhaps not.
To quote
Qiqi,
生气是表面化的发泄；伤心是隐瞒着的事实。
吵架是途径；期待些什么才是原由
Perhaps that could explain precisely what I was feeling, even till right now.
Somethings I'll probably never ever understand why. Cos I wasn't given a chance to.
Just when I thought things are over and all well, apparently the much-desired numbing effect which only lasted temporarily faded and things got worse.
Bah. I guess I was truly forlorn afterall.
Not the 1st for sure, but probably countable with just 1 hand or afew fingers.
Afterall, it ain't easy for skeptics like me to put forth my true feelings.
But right now, all I do want...
Ish someone to cuddle up against, and offer me a sanctuary...
Cos I'm feeling lost and down, and the room's as if Hell had froze over and over again...
The fact that random memories keep coming back,
random updates and snippets of events here and there,
and that sudden bout of mood swing all didn't help.
And the last thing I want was to freeze with all these random nonsense in my mind, in the room.
(The aircon CERTAINLY wasn't helping by blowing at full blast)
Right now, all I can do is stare out towards the light outside the window, while remain lost and trapped within darkness.
Guess that's the irony of life.
Afterall, I stepped into this room of darkness myself.
Probably the dumbest move evar, but then again, since when love isn't ever dumb and stupid and blind?
Ignorance is bliss, I concur.
I still love to love, and hate to hate. -zen effect-
P.S. no mood to blog abt chalet. Sorry.
& the fact that no cuties among the dragon babies sux SIA!!!oops.
Labels: blah blah..., inspirational shit, random ranting, relationship
Denial...
It just doesn't work all the time.
No wonder ignorance is truly bliss.
The idiots never have anything to worry about.
Labels: random ranting, relationship
向左走，向右走
我现在真的觉得这世界好“向左走，向右走”。
正当我很歉悔地把报告带过去给她，她却已经回往学校了。
由于她的手机无序号，我完全无法联络上她。
结果，我连她何时回家或回往学校都不知道...
我现在真不知该怎么办...
To make matters worse, incorrect application of Scenario Analysis which is meant for business on social situations' a really wrong thing.
BAH.
但是，我这次并没去她学校找她。 （partly becos 我不知道她在学校的哪一部分）
我觉得，这时候还是让她 camp 完了才找她，以免产生更多误会...
我们俩的误会可说是堆积如山，看来不是一下子就能够化解...
希望这周末，我们俩能够高高兴兴地庆祝她的二十一岁生日，而不把东西搞砸...
Labels: blah blah..., relationship
阿姨真犯贱
On Thursday night...在花柏山上...
莫个阿姨真犯贱，在我面前 bitch about 她的男朋友。
不只这样，而且还使用激将法在他身上。
当他打电话来给她时，她故意说她和男生出去走走。
这不尽令他不满，因为当时已经是晚上11pm。
Anyway, 阿姨回家后便告诉我说男友又打来。
这次，她好犯贱，因为他说明早带她去吃早餐。
有时真会怀疑女生是否比男生犯贱...
Then again, 我也好犯贱wor!!
-ROFL-
-_-
Labels: blah blah..., random ranting, relationship
I feel...
Right now...
I feel suffocated.
With a sharp pain, no less.
someone pls help give me CPR pls?
No guys pls, thank u.And I wonder why.
Perhaps it's just the starting signs of hyperventilation.
Labels: blah blah..., random ranting, relationship
容易吃醋的女人
今天我和莫个阿姨在谈话中时，她跟我说她的宝贝小猪有时对她不闻不问，有时又对她不理不睬，几乎忽视了她。
她还说要不是小猪对她不错，不然问题（"呆及") ‘大条’lor...
我想，幸亏小猪对她还不错，不然她一定找把剪刀来把他的鸡鸡给剪丢。
最可笑的就是，她说她很容易就会吃醋。
所以要是她的小猪做出任何有如出轨的行为或是动作，她一定立刻和他翻脸，一点也毫不留情。
今天就写阿姨的是是非非到这为止，改天来日方长...
Labels: blah blah..., random ranting, relationship, whining
Marriage & Guys...
As posted by
Uncle Fong Alex in the
bar.
When you agree to marry him:
He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait.
She: Do you want me to leave?
He: NO! Don't even think about it.
She: Do you love me?
He: Of course!
She: Have you ever cheated on me?
He: NO! Why you even asking?
She: Will you kiss me?
He: Yes!
She: Will you hit me?
He: No way! I'm not such kind of person!
She: Can I trust you?
Now after the marriage you can read it from bottom to the top !!!!
Labels: blah blah..., cowboybar, funny, marriage, relationship
Seclusion
Thou shall go into seclusion, in view of the 2 exams + 1x competition upcoming within 2 weeks' time.
Having said that, thou shall not be blogging during this time.
Meanwhile, some interesting things I always hear my female counterparts say.
They always lament that their prospective bfs must be able to give them security.
Or rather, they always quote the reason for breakup being "they dun feel secure with their bf".
Now then, what I believe is that security in relationship is a mutual affair.
Just as how gals can feel insecure, guys do have their moments of insecurity.
In the 1st place, guys feel insecure becos of the gal's behaviour.
And it in turn leads to the gal feeling insecure.
In my opinion, it's a vicious cycle, and the only way is to nip it in the bud.
What do you think then?
Guess shall leave this up to you folks to think about it.
Meanwhile enjoy the song and cya in 2 weeks time.
Labels: blah blah..., random ranting, relationship
Jack-ass...
Sometimes, I feel like a complete jerk.
And yes, I really do.
(And to you-know-who, you should know what I said is true. Really.)
On a side note, I wonder if it's just me or the zodiac/horoscope/element/whatsoever.
I just feel like jumping off sometimes. =(
Labels: random ranting, relationship
Gifts...
Something funny that fellow barfly
r3gular posted in the thread "Men are Romantic" on the
Cowboy Bar (CCB) forum, in response to another barfly's post + abit of his own:
lame> 
The most lomantic thing must be to buy a huge box and a big ribbon. Tie the big ribbon on yourself, and bring the huge box to your SO's doorstep. Press the doorbell, hide into the box and then...
*POP!*
*SURPRISES!~!!!!! *.......... and then...
.... oh.. it's her mum.
Times like these, it makes you think twice about calling out 'dear' when you're making fonecalls to ur S/O's home and she/he's staying with her/his parents.
You never know afterall who's gonna pick up the fone.
Labels: funny, random ranting, relationship
Sat...
Somehow dearie seems pleased that I showed up @ the chalet for her fren's bdae. And her frens damn cute..eh i mean interesting. The bdae gal (
Shuwen) somehow seem to know who I am...(I think dearie told her or sth). And her frens damn funny, they were like "Orh...." while I was still having that blur look and blushing away the whole night...
Anyway it's been a nice and sweet night and thank god that everything's alright already...
Miss u lots!
Thanks lots for the voodoo doll!! So sweet of u to get that to help me 加油 for my upcoming exams. =)
On a side note, 'playing' block catching @ 1am while just trying to look for someone isn't very fun, especially for old folks like me.
Had leg cramp while doing so. And almost fell off the stairs, of cos..=(
Meanwhile, had a scar or something lidat burst open while having the search ops.
No wonder I felt blood while touching my head...
P.S. That's my sis's hand and she's taking the foto while applying medication.
Damn, that sucks...
Labels: random ranting, relationship
Night messages...
Last night, I felt glad that dearie replied...
Sometimes, minor things like replying smses...
Makes one happy too... =)
Labels: relationship
Mere thoughts of nonsensical crap
Why do I wake up in the night, only to realise I missed you?Why do I miss you, only to have you not around?Is it pure paranoia, or just imagination playing its tricks on me?For a moment, I wish that I can just ignore the world and continue sleeping...Somehow, I thought of Pei Chong's blog entry for no reason...
what would you say if i told the world i still love you?
What would you do if all that i do is to think of you?
Would you cry? Or would i cry that you didn't?
You've gone too far away to come back ...Sweet scent of spring wilts.
Someone onced asked why the sun goes on shining? why do the birds still
fly?
Because when the heart is dead, nothing else matters anymore..
Sometimes...I just feel damn lost.
I guess while people usually say it's best to face a bad day with a smile...
I think when it's a bad day, it's best to face ur bed...
-period-
Labels: random ranting, relationship
Phobia of... Part 4
Courtesy of
www.comics.comI wonder if Stephan Pastis is going to sue me for this...
Anyway, the 'croc jr. and zebra jr.' strip has been going on for afew days. While it's damn funny just to see how croc jr.'s parents are telling croc jr. not to date a zebra cos they are food, doesn't it remind one of the typical scenario in our asian society?
Never mind if it's just about mismatch of 'species' (or in our society's case, mismatch of race, status, or even position in the 'eco system').
Not to mention, the conservative thought that kids should not 'pak tor' at a young age.
Oh well... It's a shitty world out there.
Labels: cartoon, relationship
Phobia of... Part 3
Courtesy of
www.comics.com Doesn't this seem familiar... Like it's from some chinese soap drama or sth?
Where the parents don't allow the kid to date someone...
Oh well...phobia phobia...
Labels: cartoon, relationship
Teenage Intimacy
I happened to see this article on
teenage intimacy by
ice angel (AKA Ms. Esther Chia) and thought it's pretty well written in a way.
Well, at least emotional appeals were used.
(/me whack Analytical Skills and 'fallacy of appeal to emotion/pity' outta my little head)
Do go read it and think about it. (then again, my audience seem to be in their 20s... -sighz-)
Anyway I know I ish kinda overaged to write about such issues, but then again I guess an alternative view to the typical letters from youngster would be good once in a while.
First, for students in school uniform hugging, kissing or whatsoever intimate rubbish, I guess it's up to one's discretion. Afterall, I'm pretty sure those of us out that who had 'pak tor-ed' (hokkien for being in a courtship/relationship) before with a fellow classmate or schoolmate during your school days, would have some public display of affection (PDA).
From a student point of view, I'm perfectly fine with it as long as it isn't going to (and it WILL not definitely) affect my studies. Well I mean, come on! How would hugging or kissing in public affect my grades? Even in universities, the freshmen ladies (usually around 18 going 19) do display that with their newfound love too. I believe this is common in polytechnics and JCs as well.
I do understand however that schools have a completely different set of concerns. Afterall, students are representatives of the school and will have a significant impact on their reputation and image.
However, do consider this. Which is worse off, having students who are captured on camera hugging and kissing in public, or having just 1 student who is involved in gangfights, sales of pirated DVDs or even in trivial issues like shoplifting?
I'm pretty sure schools which DO not have a good reputation with the police to start with SHOULD be more concerned about crime control, rather than worrying about the student's social life development.
(For example, my secondary school in some opposition GRC which always used to have gangfights after school)
From society's view on this issue, I'm sure that parents form the largest voice from society about this, as they're worried that these actions would lead to them being led astray or doing things that would affect their studies. These concerns while no doubt valid, may be signs of protectionism. Such conservative thoughts may backfire in our progressively modern society as teens tend to be more rebellious nowadays.
(You think teens nowadays so stupid, stand there let u take cane and whack their hands meh?!)
Eventually, these public intimacy is up to the teens' discretion, and whether they know when and where to stop at.
(Thou shall not get into the details about the minority race and their counterparts
'petting' doing some physically outrageous actions on buses and stuff lidat)
P.S. I am not racist, and neither do I make the stereotypes. I just see them.
Second, with regards to pre-marital teenage sex, teenagers usually think of it as something simple like peer pressure, the typical "if bf want & u dun give, bf break up with u", and all the various other emotional appeals. Well to a certain extent these things apply.
But my solution to these? Education, education and more education. On
sex the birds and the bees, that is.
These pressure and whatsoever appeal may be great, but that's only the causes that lead to the actions. What about the consequences?
It's just so simple. A typical cause-effect relationship.
"Because ur friends are all not virgin, thus you also follow suit and have sex with your bf/gf, in order to join them."
Doesn't the above scenario sounds familiar? Teenagers should be deterred from pre-marital sex becos of the consequences and not becos of peer pressure and stuff lidat.
There's nothing wrong with peer pressure. Only just weak minds which would succumb and end up being influenced and doing the wrong things.
My take on this? Unless you're prepared and stuff lidat, pls don't go there k?
(Me dun want to see babies tio dumped wor. Damn gross and inconsiderate and inhumane.)
I guess that's about my 2 cent worth of cow logic on teenage intimacy. =P
Afterall, lim
pehgu no longer a teenage liao...
Labels: relationship, school, society's crap-shit
Phobia of... Part 2
Sometimes... Parents can be quite da asshat too...
Even if your significant other isn't up to something funny, parents can be challenging to deal with too..
Labels: cartoon, relationship
Phobia of... Part 1
Courtesy of
www.comics.comI think this strip describes exactly what some of us guys out there are facing...(And even gals!)
It's quite a headache to bring your significant other home, only to have them tell you 'not to count on it'.
IE meeting the expectations of your parents.
Headache headache headache...
-wonder when's my turn to have such a headache...-
Labels: cartoon, relationship
